#3

Well, we find out what we're having in one week! That's seven short days to being able to say "him," or "her," not "him/her." We have names picked out as well and it's hard saying the boy name / the girl name. I don't like referring to my unborn child as an it.. just feels weird.


Each day that we get closer to finding out, I get a little nervous. At first I said I wanted a boy because I really have always wanted a boy first but the more I realize there is a human being floating around in my belly.. I don't care what it is. As long as it has one nose, two eyes, ten fingers, ten toes, two ears, two arms, two legs, etc. I just want a happy & healthy baby. I know too many people, one of my cousins included who have babies who aren't perfect little bundles of joy. They're perfect, but medically there is something wrong. I couldn't even fathom the thought of having to raise a child that has special needs or a handicapp. Everytime I see these families struggling because of their childs illness or handicapp it makes me thank God everyday for the good in my life. I know people struggle with the thought of their child not being "perfect" and it makes me pray harder to God that I'll have a healthy baby boy or girl.

I never realized when I would become pregnant I'd think about life in a totally different aspect. I guess that's all in part of growing up!