#15

Well day 3 of testing my blood sugar and eating healthy is going well. I'm noticing that this is not as bad as I had originally thought. There are plenty of foods I enjoy that are on the lower carb side of things, but I do miss my spaghetti, mac and cheese, etc. I seriously need carbaholics anonymous..

I have learned that eating healthier like I am now makes me feel better. I feel like I have more energy and I'm not as sluggish and wanting a nap all the time. I also try to walk everyday, but that doesn't always happen with me having a busier schedule week by week. My OB appointments have went from every four weeks to every two weeks! It's crazy how close it's getting down to the wire. After Christmas I should be going every week!

Time is flying when you think ahead, but week by week it kind of drags. The more I look at it, though, I'm enjoying my time of non-craziness before he gets here. I know I'm going to love being a mom but I also know that nobody said it was easy. I'm sure I'm going to cry, panic, have meltdowns, etc., but as long as I have God by my side and of course my lovely husband, I should be okay. I'm sure our parents will help and my cousins as well (as much as they can with kids themselves).

I always knew I would be a mom someday; I just felt it in my soul. My dad always told me that at first when my mom found out she was pregnant with me that he didn't know how good of a dad he would be and was nervous, but as soon as I was born he said he knew he was put on this Earth to be a dad. I feel the same way (not to be a dad of course LOL) and that's partly due to my dad being such an awesome one at that and plus I'm a clone copy of him so it was bound to be destined that way. My dad raised me the right way which is why I'm not too nervous about how I'm going to raise Isaiah. It won't be easy because of how most of society is raising their kids, but I'm going to make sure he respects his dad and I, but also knows that me & Nic love him very much and only discipline him because we love him and want him to grow up into a good person. I know he's going to challenge me (and my other children if we have more), but I'll just pray to God that he shows me the right answers to say and the right things do show him. I hope I can be that good role model he'll need just like my dad was for me.

My dad will say he made his share of mistakes when it came to us growing up and seeing/hearing things, but my brother and I know that my dad is not a monster and that people are human and we're designed to make mistakes. I think we've learned from his mistakes and it's made my dad a better man by being honest and true with us. Not many men can say they're 100% honest with their children because they're ashamed of things in their past, etc. My dad is the total opposite and I'm so glad we have that kind of bond. I just hope I can be half as good of a parent as him someday and that Isaiah thinks of me just like I think of my dad.


Well, this turned from update on my gestational diabetes to a devotional or tribute to my dad kind of post. Oh well.. it all comes from the heart :)