#15

Well day 3 of testing my blood sugar and eating healthy is going well. I'm noticing that this is not as bad as I had originally thought. There are plenty of foods I enjoy that are on the lower carb side of things, but I do miss my spaghetti, mac and cheese, etc. I seriously need carbaholics anonymous..

I have learned that eating healthier like I am now makes me feel better. I feel like I have more energy and I'm not as sluggish and wanting a nap all the time. I also try to walk everyday, but that doesn't always happen with me having a busier schedule week by week. My OB appointments have went from every four weeks to every two weeks! It's crazy how close it's getting down to the wire. After Christmas I should be going every week!

Time is flying when you think ahead, but week by week it kind of drags. The more I look at it, though, I'm enjoying my time of non-craziness before he gets here. I know I'm going to love being a mom but I also know that nobody said it was easy. I'm sure I'm going to cry, panic, have meltdowns, etc., but as long as I have God by my side and of course my lovely husband, I should be okay. I'm sure our parents will help and my cousins as well (as much as they can with kids themselves).

I always knew I would be a mom someday; I just felt it in my soul. My dad always told me that at first when my mom found out she was pregnant with me that he didn't know how good of a dad he would be and was nervous, but as soon as I was born he said he knew he was put on this Earth to be a dad. I feel the same way (not to be a dad of course LOL) and that's partly due to my dad being such an awesome one at that and plus I'm a clone copy of him so it was bound to be destined that way. My dad raised me the right way which is why I'm not too nervous about how I'm going to raise Isaiah. It won't be easy because of how most of society is raising their kids, but I'm going to make sure he respects his dad and I, but also knows that me & Nic love him very much and only discipline him because we love him and want him to grow up into a good person. I know he's going to challenge me (and my other children if we have more), but I'll just pray to God that he shows me the right answers to say and the right things do show him. I hope I can be that good role model he'll need just like my dad was for me.

My dad will say he made his share of mistakes when it came to us growing up and seeing/hearing things, but my brother and I know that my dad is not a monster and that people are human and we're designed to make mistakes. I think we've learned from his mistakes and it's made my dad a better man by being honest and true with us. Not many men can say they're 100% honest with their children because they're ashamed of things in their past, etc. My dad is the total opposite and I'm so glad we have that kind of bond. I just hope I can be half as good of a parent as him someday and that Isaiah thinks of me just like I think of my dad.


Well, this turned from update on my gestational diabetes to a devotional or tribute to my dad kind of post. Oh well.. it all comes from the heart :)

#14

Well, another thing that comes along with being a plus size mama is the possibility of having gestational diabetes. Two weeks ago, I went for my my glucose test. I had to drink this nasty orange sugary drink and wait an hour. After the hour was up I had to give them some blood and they would call me within a few days for results. Well, they called me the next day and said it was abnormal so they wanted to do a three-hour glucose test. So last week, I had to eat before 8:30pm the night before and drink plenty of water. I went in at 8:15am the next morning and they took my first of four rounds of blood then made me drink the drink again. This time it didn't want to go down as well, but I drunk every drop. Every hour I went back in there for them to draw my blood three more times and then finally got to leave and grab some lunch.

Well today I got a call from my results last week and they we're unfortunately abnormal again =/ bummer, but that's okay. I kind of figured if I we're to get pregnant at this weight it might happen plus I've had the last two weeks to kind of digest that I might actually have it. They referred me to a diabetics class where they'll teach me how to prick my finger and check my blood (which I already know from Nic's scare he had a few years ago) and also tell me the foods I should be eating.

I do know one thing though. . .

They won't ruin my Thanksgiving or Christmas! ;)



P.S. -- we're 28 weeks which equals 7 months today!

#13

I'd just like to talk about something that really bothers me. It actually truly disgust and outrages me.

News stations out of Newport, OR reported this morning that an OR mother of a 6-year-old little boy called 911 and told police that she had thrown her son off a bridge in the town and into the water. Unfortunately when rescue arrived and found him, he was no longer with us. They said when they arrested the mom she was acting strange, with a calmed look on her face like she had just got through a normal routine from her day.

It really irritates me that people--MOTHERS--can do this!! There are people out here who are trying to conceive or have lost a child and you just throw yours away! I'm truly disgusted and it makes me hope they give her the death penalty very soon. The Christian in me wants to pray for her soul because only a messed up soul could commit such a terrible crime. I could never imagine in my whole 23 years of life that I'd throw Isaiah off a bridge and be okay with it.

There are rumors going around that people questioned her mental state and if that's the case, I wish those with mental issues could not reproduce. It's not that I don't want people to enjoy children but if you can barely take care of yourself or think bad thoughts such as this, you shouldn't be taking care of children.

I feel bad for the little boys family who I know probably loved him dearly. On the news story they showed a picture of him and he looked so sweet; his name was London. I just pray his family can heal and know that he's up there in heaven being well taken care of and away from his terrible possibly mental mother.

And as for her.. I pray for her soul. I pray for her sanity and hope that if she is capable, that she begs God for forgiveness. He's the only one that can save her mind now. And once she realizes what she's done, I hope she can deal with it for the rest of her life.